Hello Everyone, I have been visiting my local Episcopal church for nearly year and I've gotten to know the priests and congregation fairly well. I have also visited other churches in my area to learn more about their practices, worship styles etc... including ACNA, Orthodox and Roman Catholic. I've even thought of visiting a "praise band" Evangelical church just to see what it's like (not my cup of honestly, but I'm willing to learn!). But, I am having trouble finding any faith. I visited during Easter and saw people so in love with God and Jesus that they were silently crying during the service. I haven't been able to feel anything similar. It's as though I am calling out for a connection to God and nothing ever happens. I tried praying for a while and never felt what anything, so I stopped. There are all these accounts by Christians that God "speaks" to their heart, or they are comforted by Jesus but I've never experienced anything of the sort. Why can't I have faith like other people? I really want to believe in God & Jesus Christ, but nothing ever comes. I will readily admit that I am a strong skeptic by nature, so this has been a challenge for me. Does God bless some people with faith and not others? I feel really left out because nothing seems to change. I realize faith is not a switch that I can turn off or on, but I feel like I've not been able to connect to God or the Holy Spirit at all. Because I can't have faith I feel like salvation doesn't apply to me- I can't believe in Jesus Christ so how can I possibly become a Christian?