This is a very questionable experience for me and I will not go into details because some of the discussion was often embarrassing, candid and vulgar. I mentioned having some rather insidious experiences with supposed Catholics that left me irate and spiritually devastated. One of these incidents occurred at a local Salvation Army here in Las Vegas. I have had a lot of dramatic religious encounters at those places, strangely. Around this time, I was visiting a forum littered with religious hypocrites called TheologyWeb. It was utterly demonic, heretical, and full of ungodly pride. You could find both Protestants and Catholics and people from other faiths touting their intellectual superiority with no humility or tenderness and showing themselves to be completely of Satan. I experienced demonic oppression and spiritual attacks while I was on the site, and it was difficult to break away from because it was so addictive. I allowed them to subjugate and abuse me spiritually because of low self-esteem and arrogance of my own. I had many panic attacks and nightmares after being on that community. When I was at a Salvation Army some years ago, I remember seeing an old man with a wrinkly face and a big nose sitting on the couch. With the robe he was wearing, I thought he was a monk. He was sitting next to a man in a uniform who looked like someone I knew online from the forum who had recently passed. I started a conversation by telling him that he looked like someone I knew, just out of compulsion, but he only stared at me. Then I asked the old man if he was a monk, and he said, "I'm a priest. Let's chat." He had a british/english accent and we talked about some things relating to Catholicism but at the time most of the conversation did not go well. I was already angry and prejudiced towards Catholics and while I tried to come off as somewhat respectful, mostly due to public etiquette, he seemed to figure I was lying and hated Catholics. I can't give a detailed summary of everything we said and talked about. I was angry at God myself and did not know what to believe, but some things he said were very suspicious to me. I did not understand at the time any of the things he was talking about. I was angered and felt like I was talking to a crazy person who was speaking heresy. He said Jesus and Mary both had venial sins in their life. Shocked, I said some hateful things, and said I would desecrate his grave. He said there wouldn't be much to find if you went to his grave. I have often mentioned my struggle with homosexuality on the forum. The man also discussed homosexuality in our culture and said in his day relationships between men were different from what we make of them now, and he didn't want to give us the idea that he was secretly gay or was affirming those practices. I told him about my struggles with lust and pornography and whispered personal things under my breath that he heard. He jeered at me and made comments about my feelings or things I said on those matters. He said I was probably reprobate and going to hell. We also talked about Anglo-Catholicism, which was one of the things I had no idea about at the time. He said Protestants had inferior miracles to Catholics, and that Dorothy Kerrin was a fraud. He said she may have had the stigmata only because she was a wannabe Catholic, but then later changed his opinion to manipulate me when he found out I wasn't sure or would accept it. I didn't even know what this was back then. There was a point where I said maybe he was an angel or a saint, and he says, "Oh, and why would you say that?" And I said I didn't know, just that it was peculiar that someone like this would show up around there. He said he didn't feel sorry for my suffering, and that God was using this as a judgement to gratuitously torture me and I was destined to spend the rest of my life headed for hell with no hope. I went irate and began hitting him and saying blasphemous things, how angry I was with God, and others, and he said, "Oh, don't do that. I can fight, you know." Then I lifted a piece of furniture like a chair from the store and threatened to bludgeon him and he said with a horrified look, "OK, stop." There was more to it but it eventually ended with him going off saying I had God's wrath on me. He may have suggested that I had a demon in me and it wouldn't come out unless I was Roman Catholic, and that it would probably be nasty. Then he said, "Oh, and you asked that maybe I was a saint? Perhaps I am, like maybe John Henry Newman or something!" The other man in the uniform appeared out of nowhere suddenly and said he had heard the argument. The old man said he knew someone who thought he had met a saint and said it probably was. They both looked sad and walked off. They did not disappear suddenly. They hung around the entire store and talked for a considerable while to the other employees and then exited through a back door where the donations are handled. I followed them and found them standing on the side of the street chatting, and the old man looked back at me and said, "Well? You think we're just going to disappear? Go on, now." I checked again a second time and they were still there. But then I left. Some parallels are the fact that Newman's grave was very frugal and his body completely dissolved when they exhumed it to move the relics. That, and his sexuality was a point of discussion during his lifetime in terms of his relationship with Ambrose St. John. Lastly, the person on the forum who had passed away looked similar to the man in the uniform who I had seen. We had been discussing Anglicanism on the forum in the last few months. Although it was superficial. I did not really delve into it or understand it as much as I do now, but we found out the member who died that I am talking about said Newman's doctrine of development made sense. This is the only connection to Newman we found at the time with this person, and he had told me in an email when I asked him about Anglicanism when he was still alive) that he thought the Roman Catholics and Eastern Orthodox were better and was basically ashamed of his Anglicanism. Some of the Catholic apologists on the forum told me that some of the things the old man was trying to explain to me was the doctrine of development. Supposedly this would imply that the deceased member was a convert by desire. He had a fairly kind demeanor on the forum compared to the others, however.... The fact that he praised or glorified the evil and hypocritical behavior of the others who he was friends with, despite being among the 'nicer' ones, makes me question his sanctity. From what I understand, in RC doctrine, promoting sinful behavior is almost as bad as doing it yourself. Most of those people were NOT Godly! This is coupled with the fact that the encounter with this person made my openness to the RCs worse. Dealing with prejudices against RCs as a lifelong Protestant is only something I've recently managed to overcome thanks to loving and gentle people I've met online. Saying I'm under wrath or a curse is strange. If anything, I've become more open to understanding not just Anglicans and Eastern Orthodox, but Roman Catholics! Reading the Catechism, talking to friends on the forum who dialogue with us, and so forth. And I don't see how my spiritual anguish has been any better or worse since then as it has been since I was young! In some ways, it might even be better, though I am still battling sin like pride, hate, anger, etc. Even the RC warns people that apparitions of Jesus, Mary, and of course, Saints, can be of the devil. They can appear credible under the circumstances by which they happen, but have just enough heresy and dirt in them to be proven false. I don't think Jesus and Mary having venial sin or being destined to hell are taught by the RC at all! Also, the RC asks that people respect all canonized saints, even if they prefer some over another. A demon taking the guise of someone like Newman and then being exposed as a fraud ingrains the image of an otherwise holy person in your mind as an enemy and would be an attempt to instill disdain towards them, another weapon of Satan. I am really skeptical about this experience. Please offer your insight so as to help me. It has caused me a lot of confusion and spiritual torment. Do you think it was Newman? I found out we do have a Newman center in Nevada, a Catholic academy of sorts. And, I also want to add that the person who resembled the deceased member only did so superficially. He was much thinner but had similar facial features. And I can't remember if the old man really resembled Newman as we see him in the pictures where he is sitting with a red cardinal robe, or as a man who resembled a smaller version of then-pope Ratzinger or Bergoglio (Francis). The picture of what exactly he and his clothes looked like changes throughout the different moments I remember talking to him. Some things I remember him saying maybe have been invented or added later through suggestion or memory errors, but I have a good feeling that most of this happened. I remember when he told me maybe he was Newman that saints don't always have to look exactly the same during encounters, but I don't know. And I think he may have told me when he said Jesus and Mary had venial sins that he remembered this was condemned by a papal statement, and when I accused him of heresy, he said it didn't matter because maybe he didn't believe it, because I said earlier that sometimes saints or angels speak hypothetically or conditionally to test people. He also may have suggested not so much that I was predestined to hell but rather a very good chance that I was going to hell because I was not Roman Catholic and still had demons in me. Like I said, sometimes my memory is misplaced. Someone here mentioned that people like this would not appear for a trivial reason if it was really them. I wanted to give it a serious thought, but there's room for skepticism.