Hello All, I know I haven't really been very active online for a while. The truth is, I've been on a rather wild ride the last couple of months. I broached the subject with Admin in order to apologize for not having finished my part of the homilies project. He was very gracious and patient and even suggested that I talk about it on the forum. I stayed away from doing so simply because I didn't want to have a pity party and quite frankly, up until recently, all the emotions were too raw. But now I'm at a place where I think I can vent and yet still find redemption in it. First my computer crashed, which is pretty detrimental since a good bit of my work is done remotely. Then, while having a meeting with my department to discuss expanding our product line and begin hiring new team members, our supervisor walked in with the HR rep to inform us that due to revenue hold-ups from the Federal Sequestration, the department was going into hibernation for the foreseeable future and that all of our positions would be eliminated by the end of the month. Funny thing is, the market had been flooded by nearly 900 lawyers because a major doc review contract had ended, so like the last guys standing in a game of musical chairs, no jobs were available in the local area. Sadly, this could not have come at a worse time for me. I had eaten into almost all of my savings 6 months earlier so that I could move closer to the office as a condition of being hired on directly by my employer after spending 2 years as a contractor. With no job and no prospects, my family and I made the decision to move back home to Georgia while we still had the money to do so. We put most of our possessions in storage and brought only what we absolutely needed across country in the back of our car and truck. While driving we hit a terrible thunderstrom that stayed with us for 5 states. somewhere in the process, the tarp and several of the bagged items that we used to protect a lot of things had been ripped so much of our stuff was ruined. My promised severance was delayed, in fact I'm still waiting for it. And when I broke my lease due to the loss of my job, I was told by the property manager that as long as new tenants moved in, she felt sure the landlords would forego $1400 lease break fee. Because the recent wildfires had displaced many families in the area, not only were they able to get new renters thay raised the rent on them by $750 a month! Then the day before we left I got a call from the property manager informing that the landlords had given it a lot of thought but decided that a contract is a contract, regardless of my own dire situation and the fact that they were actually getting a windfall that they would not have gotten but for the fact that I broke the lease. So it goes. Any way, we have finally made it back home, but there appears to be even less work here than back in CO. On top of that, we were able to find a house to rent until we get back on our feet. Only, we've just had to vacate 1 day after taking possession of the house because the septic sytem must be completely replaced. So now my family is sleeping on my mom's couch indefinitely. And I have to drive to the McDonalds for a decent internet connection. So now in a couple of days I will be celebrating my 35th birthday with no job, no home, and no savings. Exhale. So that's were I am. The life I've spent a long time building has been completely wiped out in only a few weeks and now I am back at square one. So what's redemptive about all this? At every step of the way, no matter how bad things have gotten, God's grace has been there to sustain my and my family. Every prayer is, no matter how farfetched seems to be supernaturally anwered when all hope seems lost. I have found a level of trust and dependence in God that I have never known. At every pitfall, when I have been tempted to despair, I keep hearing that verse in the back of my head, "all things work together for good for them that love God". And it's true, my God is it true. He has carried me through every trial. He is my rock and my redeemer, and he has taught me what it is to trust. Thanks be to Him from whom all blessings flow. Amen.